So much new in so little time...

Ah August...the first year I'm not attending school...wish I was as a teacher but that will come with time. So, catch up yeah? Three more weeks until I move in to my new apartment...it will be so nice, it's two bedroom - two bathroom. Beautiful and my roommate is wonderful, can't wait to move in with him. Getting there may kill us but it's worth it...all of a sudden it was - set up power, cable, internet, renters insurance, move and prove you can make it - *falls over* but I have a great support team and a wonderful job and prospects for second jobs so we'll be fine.

I got hired on at Sally's Beauty Supply...I interviewed for that job the same day as my last (and only) teaching job. My boss is so wonderful, she's giving me all sorts of hours I need to make it along with writing a letter of employment to the apartment. Now if subbing will work out it'll be all okay. If it doesn't, then I'll do something else, so happy I'm not worrying...I did have my freak out and signing the papers gave me a fright but it's worth it.

I had another interview with a school to be a tech aide so we'll see, I'm not sure if I'll take it but it gives me experience with interviewing. I think subbing would be better...I have to start packing this week and next *falls over* ...I hate going through stuff and deciding what to take but...kinda need stuff so it's worth it. Can't wait to start fall off the right way. I am so lucky.

Deadliest Catch

I have never liked reality T.V., I find it for the most part petty and pointless, but this show is something completely different.

Tonight we watched the last episode that Phil Harris would be appearing in. He passed away in February of 2010. The addition of "After The Catch" brought a new light. This show tonight said farewell to a Captain, Phil Harris.

I started watching the show when it began and connected immediately with the Cornelia Marie. Seeing the entire fleet go through the hardships and dangers that are almost second nature to them puts my own life into some sort of perspective. I realized that this great man would have passed without the world knowing. It's only because Discovery launched the show that so many people have grown to love and follow the lives of the extraordinary men. It's the show that made it possible for millions of people to witness the passing of a father and captain. I cannot imagine losing my father so I hope that somehow Josh and Jake feel the support of all the people that watch the show. In a twist I went to 'Like' Deadliest Catch - F/V Northwestern and went to their home page and they had instead a black screen with the words "Goodnight, Phil" along with the song "Hear you me" by Jimmy Eat World. So, I thought I would share it with anyone who passes by. This is the only reality TV show that shows men at their most vulnerable and finest all at the same time. I admire the men of the Alaskan fishing fleet and sincerely thank Discovery channel for putting this show on the air.

Sacred and Profane Love
Titian

Which is Sacred and which is Profane?

Give Up?

This is a master work which embodies Neo-Platonic ideas about the greatest of emotions - Love. Awhile back I heard on average a person will "love" seven times...is it the same strength of love as what Titian is trying show? Our English language has but one word for love that has been diluted and used to describe love towards another or love for chocolate.

C.S. Lewis wrote a book about the Four Loves: those loves are Eros (the act of being in love), Storge (affection), Philia (friendship), and Agape (unconditional).

A person can stare at this painting and just the surface meaning is simple beauty, the glowing colors coupled with the movement in the drapery and the calm of the distant landscape...how the painting calls to all begging to be unwrapped and understood. This painting was meant for a sophisticated audience - this is a challenging painting and my small understanding but scrapes the surface.

Just take what one sees, the figures of the two women, the audience has stumbled in on a conversation taking place. Scholars have suggested these two women appear to be sisters. Behind the women there is a child or a cupid stirring the water with his arm in a well shaped like a sarcophagus. Water represents a baptism a rebirth and the Sarcophagus is how humans lay the dead to rest. By placing the two together, out of death comes new life.

Sound familiar?

Titian used very thin oil glazes to capture the light and this painting glows. The time of day appears to be a late afternoon or early evening (a golden hour). The glowing light illuminates all areas in the painting. Moving down to the bottom of the sarcophagus is a traditional looking relief sculpture...but I'll get to the in a minute.

So made up your mind? Think you know who is who?

The Profane Love is the woman on the left in the gown. Looking at the background is the first clue, she is in a cluttered moody dark background, there is a fortress in the upper left corner. Closed off and fortified, nothing can get in and set her soul free. There is a hunter also in the background, he has gone hunting and has not been successful, there are two rabbits sitting staring at the audience. She is clothed in layers, a belt, gloves, heavy layered dress, long sleeves (one red and one white), she isn't open and sure of herself. Her expression appears to be mulling something over, perhaps something her sister has said while figuring a jar that is closed and covered. In her other hand is a rose, something so beautiful has thorns, it must protect itself.

Back to the relief sculpture between them, at first it doesn't look like anything special but upon further examination it reveals devastating realization. The sculpture moves towards Sacred, a man is leading a horse by the mane, another man is holding a man by the hair, there is a screaming woman. Not pleasant depictions. Also the rose bush is between Profane and Sacred - going from focusing on the thorns to the petals.

The Relief Sculpture provides dynamic symbolism, Profane must go through something like a rite of passage or a hardship in order to reach what Sacred is possessing. Profane must die to her old ways to reach a life of new, some rites of passages include; baptism, puberty, conformation, Marriage

Be baptized in the mystery of love

Sacred is the nude holding an oil lamp - purity doesn't need anything to hide behind. The clouds frame the lamp with a lit flame pointing towards heaven, the background is clean and open. She is the dominant figure, when one first looks at the painting the eye goes to her, that was no mistake. The white around her lower abdomen and red drapes have life and are reflected in Profane's sleeves. There is a flock of sheep with a shepherd (the Good Shepherd) and there is also a huntsman who has been successful and returns with a kill. The church steeple points upward.

Sacred is asking Profane to let go and be venerable to love - to put something on the line for love - open herself up - take a leap - Trust

Can you rise to the plea? Can you love like this?

Dear Doctor

Dear Doctor...I regret to inform you, you are stupid. That's right I said stupid. Oh I know it must be very hard for that inflated head of yours to wrap around the concept of lack of intelligence but believe me sir, you, have taken the cake. Not only did you prescribe an antibiotic without really talking to me...no you walked in the room looked at my finger and within a minute I had a prescription for the drug from hell. Yes that's right from hell...you didn't tell me side effects, all you said was "don't go out in the sun"....which I followed. You neglected, very stupidly I might add, to tell me that this drug will make you feel like you're going to die. It will kill all the good bacteria along with the bad and make you basically have the flu...complete with chills and stubborn fever.

For posterity a list of my side effects:
Fever, chills, heaviness in limbs, confusion, restlessness, swelling of lymph nodes, runny nose, restlessness, slight shortness of breath, hives, severe headaches, soreness of muscles, loss of appetite, and upset stomach.

No, no warnings about rashes or hives or shortness of breath...especially no mention of the need to be replacing the good bacteria that it was killing. So, two and a half weeks after I stopped taking the medication (oh yes I went against doctors orders and stopped because I said "I have hives = really allergic" they said "keep taking") I visit my newborn nephew and end up in prompt care, (after having called you doctor to ask what I should do...you replied "take Bactrium" ...asshole.) with "raging tonsillitis" wanna know how I got it? Oh that's right...from the Bactrium you prescribed. So after an actual shot of penicillin and a new antibiotic of augmentin I pray I am on the mend or the next visit will be a stay at the hospital...

Dear Doctor again...four visits, three antibiotics later and my allergic reaction - raging tonsillitis is now officially mono...once again, thank you.

So yes doctor...you indeed are an idiot.

A warning for the rest of you: DO NOT take Bactrium it is a sulfa drug and if someone prescribes it to you MAKE SURE you get the complete list of side effects. I am allergic to said drug and wish it would be pulled off the market after all the horrible posts from others who were subjected to the drug. It is entirely too aggressive.

The Rocket Summer - Walls

Late Nights.

Ah night time, a time I am beginning to dread...so many things slammed before me and I'm not sure where to go or what to do. This is my test, can I stand on my own and take my steps without help or do I wimp out and take refuge in a safe haven. No, nights aren't good, too many possibilities and options and disappointments looming. I feel like I've been trampled, broken promises, people saying, "oh great job" and "you do so well of course I will support you" and nothing comes...no letter, no acknowledgment, it hurts more than I let on. I busted my tail to work and I was given feedback that I did a wonderful job and then...silence. Nothing but darkness in the night, both embracing and cold. I don't like uncertainty and every road I am looking down is full of it. So, which do I choose?
I'm not saying I regret anything, because I don't...but it doesn't make it easy, or enjoyable. I pretend to be fixed when in actuality I feel like the Beatles lyrics "...take these broken wings and learn to fly...take these broken eyes and learn to see..."

So begins my road.

Zodiac

EMILY

To Strive or Excel or Rival

MAYAN
Mayan Sun Sign: Crocodile (Imix) : Crocodile receives messages of primal creative force. This energy is simply the beginning of all things. Crocodiles who follow their hearts are seen as geniuses. There is no order to the primal messages, so Crocodile persons should direct their energies toward practical and cooperative efforts to bring productive results. Crocodiles have a strong nurturing energy and will work hard to provide security to family and friends. Being extremely territorial, Crocodiles must watch not to be over protective or too dominating. While in these states, Crocodiles are insecure, indecisive and emotionally volatile
Mayan Galactic Tone 5/Empowerment : At the center of the cube we find Five. Five is an intelligent, organizing force which manages communications, materials, knowledge and application. Fives are natural net workers who gather what is needed. These persons can probe directly to the core of any situation making them excellent investigatorsCHINESE
Rabbit : Kind, affectionate but often over cautious and can be superficial at times.
Positive traits: sensitive, tactful, home loving, refined, prudent, discreet, long-living, ambitious, cultured, well-mannered, artistic, considerate, scholarly, suave, graciously hospitable, modest and calm.
Timid and attractive, the Rabbits of the Chinese Zodiac tend to act more like bunnies, whether they like it or not! This Sign is extremely popular and has a wide circle of family and friends. Its compassionate nature leads it to be very protective of those it holds dear, but where romance is concerned, the Rabbit's sentimentality can lead it to idealize relationships. The sweet, sensitive Rabbit often ends up giving more of itself to a partner than is realistic or healthy. The good news is, when this Sign goes off-balance, the Rabbit's core group of friends and its stable home life help bring it back to center.

The Rabbit is a rather delicate Sign that needs a solid base in order to thrive. Lacking close, supportive friends and family, the Rabbit might just break down in tears at the first sign of conflict. Emotional upsets in this Sign's life can even lead to physical illnesses. Rabbits dislike arguments and other conflict and will try anything to avoid a fight; this results in something of a pushover nature. Rabbits can also lapse into pessimism and may seem stuck in life -- often to mask their insecure natures. Rabbits tend to move through life's lessons at their own, rather contemplative pace; it's a waste of time to become exasperated with this Sign's seeming disinterest in facing its problems and conquering them.

With the right partner -- meaning someone whose high principles won't allow it to take advantage of this sensitive, giving Sign -- the Rabbit can make an incredibly loving and protective partner or family member. Rabbits love to entertain at home and always make sure their house is comfortable and tastefully-furnished. What Rabbits need most is a stronger sense of self-worth and the security that comes with it. Their discerning natures, coupled with some hard-won assertiveness, will help these happy creatures go far.

Fire: unspoken magnetism and mystery to the Rabbit. A burning desire to live life to the fullest, active and adventurous and love anything that sparks their creativity or curiosity. Fire Rabbits are charming and tend to push their emotions into the backs of their minds, but will speak up if necessary.
Those of you born under the influence of the Chinese Element Fire burn through life with your fierce charm, your impulsive enthusiasm and your restless emotions. A natural leader, you inspire with your decisive action and dramatic expression; people can't help but be magnetically drawn to you. Where will you lead your followers? Likely into an exciting adventure of some sort. You're instinctual, but your mind sparks with new ideas and clever solutions. In love, you're highly-charged -- even combustible at times! Hot tamales to the core, these dynamic individuals can see straight to the heart of an issue and make it work for them. You may seem single-minded, but you just refuse to be swayed from a cause they believe to be important.


WESTERN ZODIAC SUN SIGN
Taurus : Ardor, patience, determined, logic, industry, sensuality. Taureans never slap or sting. Rather, they creepy up on you, affect you deeply and leave their indelible impression on your soul. Think of Taurus as a long sensual kiss.Your element: EarthYour ruling planets: Venus
Symbol: The Bull
Your stone: EmeraldLife Pursuit: Emotional and financial securityVibration: Determined energy
Taurus Secret Desire: To have a secure, happy and wealthy life/marriage.
Description:
Underneath their cool, calm and collected exterior, Taureans differ greatly from all the other signs of the zodiac. Taureans manage to discreetly stay apart from the crowd, even though they have a well-earned reputation for being social. They will let others get close, but only so close as they want them. Some claim that trying to get your point across to a Taurean, should they not want to hear you, is rather similar to talking to the trees – they simply won't budge. And, there is no such thing as an open-book Taurean. Their feelings, fears and desires often run far deeper than anyone around them would guess. Like the butterfly that chooses to remain hidden in its cocoon until it is ready and prepared to emerge, so the true Taurean spirit remains hidden behind a veneer of day-to-day activities. That's why Taureans are sometimes regarded as snobby, withdrawn, boring, or even sulky.
The truth is, when Taureans manage to operate very adequately on their own form of automatic pilot, they can switch off from the world around them very efficiently. And when they do switch off, they are actually gathering in their inner reserves to deal with the outside pressures. This sign is also very closely connected to 'feeling good'. Most Taureans like their creature comforts and hate change because it takes them out of their automatic pilot condition of separating themselves from the world around them.
Because they hate to be put in jeopardy of any kind, this is the sign that strives to create tomorrow in advance, rather than leave it to fate. In love, Taureans are regarded as extremely sensual beings. An earth sign, they deal well with the personal, physical senses and consequently all the pleasures associated with what they can see, touch, smell and taste, add up to a special delight to them. Often nature and pet lovers, Taureans are closely associated with all things off the earth and nature.

Taurus Basic Profile:
conservative, sensible, responsible, meticulous, artistic, loyal consistent, dependable, generous, physically strong, sexual, but can be rigid, stubborn, selfish, suspicious, hot-tempered

MOON SIGN--VIRGO
The Moon in Virgo individual knows intuitively that the world is complicated and multi-faceted, and many things need to be done to keep afloat in it. If he or she is an energetic person, they can easily become workaholics as they will fuss endlessly about every detail, unable to relax and calm down until a whole pile of different chores have been sorted out. The inability of these people to relax can often lead to nervousness and disturbances of the digestive system. They can become over-critical and sometimes this makes them highly-strung and rather unbearable to those around them.
On the other hand, sometimes if the Moon in Virgo belongs to a passive person, he or she might end up doing nothing at all. They know very well how many things ought to be done, but because they know they will be unable to do everything, they just stay idle.Since they have a good memory and are resourceful, Virgo Moon people often succeed in areas where it’s necessary to keep a lot of details in mind, and they can prioritise, systematise and put things in order. They are curious to know how the human body works and how to make it more efficient, and as a result they may find themselves studying medicine, nutrition or some kind of healing. In fact, knowledge of what to eat and when to eat can be really important for Virgo Moons because in their physiology, the state of their health is very closely related to their digestion. Perhaps this is the very reason why Moon in Virgo people are so selective with food. Never will they eat just anything! Ever!To stop being stressed out, these people find it helpful to do housework: cleaning, washing up, tidying. Domestic chores can serve as a kind of shelter from the problems of life. Another much less desirable way to deal with their nervousness is to pass it on to others! They do this unintentionally, because it can be so difficult, given their attention to details, not to find something wrong with someone and then latch on to it and nag.
Parents with the Moon in Virgo want to teach their children how to work, how to do everything themselves, and how to keep things in order. Perhaps this is because their own mother taught them how to do all these things, in the same way.

Virgo Basic Profile:Analytical, rational, fair, methodical, talented, planner, hardworking, discriminating, tasteful, motivated, reserved, intelligent, creative, orderly, structured, but can be critical, rigid, sarcastic, snobbish, narrow-minded

COMPARED TAURUS SUN AND VIRGO MOON

• Symbol--------------------The Bull-------------------The Virgin
• Element-------------------Earth----------------------Earth
• Group---------------------Emotional----------------Intellectual
• Polarity-------------------Negative------------------Negative
• Fav. Colors---------------Green/Brown------------Navy/Neutrals
• Key Body-----------------Part Neck/Throat-------Nervous System
• Ruling Planet------------Venus----------------------Mercury
• Cross/Quality-----------Fixed-----------------------Mutable
• House Ruled-------------Second---------------------Sixth
• Opposite------------------Scorpio--------------------Pisces
• Lucky Gem---------------Emerald-------------------Peridot

EGYPTIAN
Anubis' are clever, full of compassion, a bit of a fatalist, slightly ambivalent or inhibited but deep...Female color Crimson, male color sienna


AZTEC
Name - Cipactli
English name - Alligator
Tonal name - 1
Description
Alligator is a good and creative nature. She tends to be very helpful individual, and carries much concern worries of the others. Sex plays important part in alligator's life but is not necessary item although sex has deep significance for her. Alligators are mostly very faithful partners.



NATIVE AMERICAN
Beaver - methodical, perseverance, inventive, headstrong

CELTIC
Willow
Physical Goal: To encourage a comfortable relationship with the material world, which is full of lessons and cycles of changing values. Change is paramount for growth...and values are no exception.
Mental Goal: To gain understanding of a particular concept...a steady accumulation of facts is the foundation of understanding. Not everything may be learned in one lesson...the key is repetition.
Spiritual Goal: To learn that there must be periods of rest rather than continual activity.

DRUID HOROSCOPE
Name - Jasmine
Dates - 1.5-14.5,3.11-11.11
Type - Feminine
Element - Fire
Description
Jasmine is swift in her talks, thoughts and moves. She's sensitive, emotional and pessimistic. Jasmine does considerateness, diplomatic and farsighted actions. Jasmine looks for independency and does not want to be tied up to anything.

FINNISH HOROSCOPE
Main sign - Wild boar (lynx)
Heart sign - Lynx
Dates - 17.4-8.5
Description
This boar is very efficient combination, charismatic and lives on the edge of present. Her humour is demanding, even strange, because she resents obvious things. There are some, who start to dislike this boar because of her originality.
There are two kinds of people among these board: Positive basic wild boards, and extreme divas. She feels same time as a calculative as dreamiest. She thinks impossible dreams being needless waste of time, and plays only with safe cards.
She lets her inspiration to affect everything and after she's finished her project, she's open for praising.

BLOOD
Type A – The Farmer
calm
patient
sensitive
responsible
overcautious
stubborn
unable to relax

AUSTRALIAN
Hairy-nosed Wombat - Fertility = End of Cycle


http://www.angelfire.com/wi/innerwisdom/auzastrology.html
MAYAN - http://www.mayanmajix.com/TZOLKIN/index.php
WESTERN - http://www.psychicguild.com/horoscopes_zodiac.php?sign=Taurus
MOON - http://lunarium.co.uk/sign.php
EGYPTIAN - http://hubpages.com/hub/Egyptian-Astrology
NATIVE AMERICAN - http://www.brownielocks.com/NativeAmericanHoroscope.html
CELTIC - http://www.novareinna.com/constellation/willow.html
AZTEC - http://www.thebookofshadows.net/aztec-horoscope/cipactli.html
DRUID - http://www.thebookofshadows.net/druidhoroscope/jasmine.html