The Rocket Summer - Walls

Late Nights.

Ah night time, a time I am beginning to dread...so many things slammed before me and I'm not sure where to go or what to do. This is my test, can I stand on my own and take my steps without help or do I wimp out and take refuge in a safe haven. No, nights aren't good, too many possibilities and options and disappointments looming. I feel like I've been trampled, broken promises, people saying, "oh great job" and "you do so well of course I will support you" and nothing comes...no letter, no acknowledgment, it hurts more than I let on. I busted my tail to work and I was given feedback that I did a wonderful job and then...silence. Nothing but darkness in the night, both embracing and cold. I don't like uncertainty and every road I am looking down is full of it. So, which do I choose?
I'm not saying I regret anything, because I don't...but it doesn't make it easy, or enjoyable. I pretend to be fixed when in actuality I feel like the Beatles lyrics "...take these broken wings and learn to fly...take these broken eyes and learn to see..."

So begins my road.