Dear Doctor

Dear Doctor...I regret to inform you, you are stupid. That's right I said stupid. Oh I know it must be very hard for that inflated head of yours to wrap around the concept of lack of intelligence but believe me sir, you, have taken the cake. Not only did you prescribe an antibiotic without really talking to me...no you walked in the room looked at my finger and within a minute I had a prescription for the drug from hell. Yes that's right from hell...you didn't tell me side effects, all you said was "don't go out in the sun"....which I followed. You neglected, very stupidly I might add, to tell me that this drug will make you feel like you're going to die. It will kill all the good bacteria along with the bad and make you basically have the flu...complete with chills and stubborn fever.

For posterity a list of my side effects:
Fever, chills, heaviness in limbs, confusion, restlessness, swelling of lymph nodes, runny nose, restlessness, slight shortness of breath, hives, severe headaches, soreness of muscles, loss of appetite, and upset stomach.

No, no warnings about rashes or hives or shortness of breath...especially no mention of the need to be replacing the good bacteria that it was killing. So, two and a half weeks after I stopped taking the medication (oh yes I went against doctors orders and stopped because I said "I have hives = really allergic" they said "keep taking") I visit my newborn nephew and end up in prompt care, (after having called you doctor to ask what I should do...you replied "take Bactrium" ...asshole.) with "raging tonsillitis" wanna know how I got it? Oh that's right...from the Bactrium you prescribed. So after an actual shot of penicillin and a new antibiotic of augmentin I pray I am on the mend or the next visit will be a stay at the hospital...

Dear Doctor again...four visits, three antibiotics later and my allergic reaction - raging tonsillitis is now officially mono...once again, thank you.

So yes doctor...you indeed are an idiot.

A warning for the rest of you: DO NOT take Bactrium it is a sulfa drug and if someone prescribes it to you MAKE SURE you get the complete list of side effects. I am allergic to said drug and wish it would be pulled off the market after all the horrible posts from others who were subjected to the drug. It is entirely too aggressive.

The Rocket Summer - Walls

Late Nights.

Ah night time, a time I am beginning to dread...so many things slammed before me and I'm not sure where to go or what to do. This is my test, can I stand on my own and take my steps without help or do I wimp out and take refuge in a safe haven. No, nights aren't good, too many possibilities and options and disappointments looming. I feel like I've been trampled, broken promises, people saying, "oh great job" and "you do so well of course I will support you" and nothing comes...no letter, no acknowledgment, it hurts more than I let on. I busted my tail to work and I was given feedback that I did a wonderful job and then...silence. Nothing but darkness in the night, both embracing and cold. I don't like uncertainty and every road I am looking down is full of it. So, which do I choose?
I'm not saying I regret anything, because I don't...but it doesn't make it easy, or enjoyable. I pretend to be fixed when in actuality I feel like the Beatles lyrics "...take these broken wings and learn to fly...take these broken eyes and learn to see..."

So begins my road.

Zodiac

EMILY

To Strive or Excel or Rival

MAYAN
Mayan Sun Sign: Crocodile (Imix) : Crocodile receives messages of primal creative force. This energy is simply the beginning of all things. Crocodiles who follow their hearts are seen as geniuses. There is no order to the primal messages, so Crocodile persons should direct their energies toward practical and cooperative efforts to bring productive results. Crocodiles have a strong nurturing energy and will work hard to provide security to family and friends. Being extremely territorial, Crocodiles must watch not to be over protective or too dominating. While in these states, Crocodiles are insecure, indecisive and emotionally volatile
Mayan Galactic Tone 5/Empowerment : At the center of the cube we find Five. Five is an intelligent, organizing force which manages communications, materials, knowledge and application. Fives are natural net workers who gather what is needed. These persons can probe directly to the core of any situation making them excellent investigatorsCHINESE
Rabbit : Kind, affectionate but often over cautious and can be superficial at times.
Positive traits: sensitive, tactful, home loving, refined, prudent, discreet, long-living, ambitious, cultured, well-mannered, artistic, considerate, scholarly, suave, graciously hospitable, modest and calm.
Timid and attractive, the Rabbits of the Chinese Zodiac tend to act more like bunnies, whether they like it or not! This Sign is extremely popular and has a wide circle of family and friends. Its compassionate nature leads it to be very protective of those it holds dear, but where romance is concerned, the Rabbit's sentimentality can lead it to idealize relationships. The sweet, sensitive Rabbit often ends up giving more of itself to a partner than is realistic or healthy. The good news is, when this Sign goes off-balance, the Rabbit's core group of friends and its stable home life help bring it back to center.

The Rabbit is a rather delicate Sign that needs a solid base in order to thrive. Lacking close, supportive friends and family, the Rabbit might just break down in tears at the first sign of conflict. Emotional upsets in this Sign's life can even lead to physical illnesses. Rabbits dislike arguments and other conflict and will try anything to avoid a fight; this results in something of a pushover nature. Rabbits can also lapse into pessimism and may seem stuck in life -- often to mask their insecure natures. Rabbits tend to move through life's lessons at their own, rather contemplative pace; it's a waste of time to become exasperated with this Sign's seeming disinterest in facing its problems and conquering them.

With the right partner -- meaning someone whose high principles won't allow it to take advantage of this sensitive, giving Sign -- the Rabbit can make an incredibly loving and protective partner or family member. Rabbits love to entertain at home and always make sure their house is comfortable and tastefully-furnished. What Rabbits need most is a stronger sense of self-worth and the security that comes with it. Their discerning natures, coupled with some hard-won assertiveness, will help these happy creatures go far.

Fire: unspoken magnetism and mystery to the Rabbit. A burning desire to live life to the fullest, active and adventurous and love anything that sparks their creativity or curiosity. Fire Rabbits are charming and tend to push their emotions into the backs of their minds, but will speak up if necessary.
Those of you born under the influence of the Chinese Element Fire burn through life with your fierce charm, your impulsive enthusiasm and your restless emotions. A natural leader, you inspire with your decisive action and dramatic expression; people can't help but be magnetically drawn to you. Where will you lead your followers? Likely into an exciting adventure of some sort. You're instinctual, but your mind sparks with new ideas and clever solutions. In love, you're highly-charged -- even combustible at times! Hot tamales to the core, these dynamic individuals can see straight to the heart of an issue and make it work for them. You may seem single-minded, but you just refuse to be swayed from a cause they believe to be important.


WESTERN ZODIAC SUN SIGN
Taurus : Ardor, patience, determined, logic, industry, sensuality. Taureans never slap or sting. Rather, they creepy up on you, affect you deeply and leave their indelible impression on your soul. Think of Taurus as a long sensual kiss.Your element: EarthYour ruling planets: Venus
Symbol: The Bull
Your stone: EmeraldLife Pursuit: Emotional and financial securityVibration: Determined energy
Taurus Secret Desire: To have a secure, happy and wealthy life/marriage.
Description:
Underneath their cool, calm and collected exterior, Taureans differ greatly from all the other signs of the zodiac. Taureans manage to discreetly stay apart from the crowd, even though they have a well-earned reputation for being social. They will let others get close, but only so close as they want them. Some claim that trying to get your point across to a Taurean, should they not want to hear you, is rather similar to talking to the trees – they simply won't budge. And, there is no such thing as an open-book Taurean. Their feelings, fears and desires often run far deeper than anyone around them would guess. Like the butterfly that chooses to remain hidden in its cocoon until it is ready and prepared to emerge, so the true Taurean spirit remains hidden behind a veneer of day-to-day activities. That's why Taureans are sometimes regarded as snobby, withdrawn, boring, or even sulky.
The truth is, when Taureans manage to operate very adequately on their own form of automatic pilot, they can switch off from the world around them very efficiently. And when they do switch off, they are actually gathering in their inner reserves to deal with the outside pressures. This sign is also very closely connected to 'feeling good'. Most Taureans like their creature comforts and hate change because it takes them out of their automatic pilot condition of separating themselves from the world around them.
Because they hate to be put in jeopardy of any kind, this is the sign that strives to create tomorrow in advance, rather than leave it to fate. In love, Taureans are regarded as extremely sensual beings. An earth sign, they deal well with the personal, physical senses and consequently all the pleasures associated with what they can see, touch, smell and taste, add up to a special delight to them. Often nature and pet lovers, Taureans are closely associated with all things off the earth and nature.

Taurus Basic Profile:
conservative, sensible, responsible, meticulous, artistic, loyal consistent, dependable, generous, physically strong, sexual, but can be rigid, stubborn, selfish, suspicious, hot-tempered

MOON SIGN--VIRGO
The Moon in Virgo individual knows intuitively that the world is complicated and multi-faceted, and many things need to be done to keep afloat in it. If he or she is an energetic person, they can easily become workaholics as they will fuss endlessly about every detail, unable to relax and calm down until a whole pile of different chores have been sorted out. The inability of these people to relax can often lead to nervousness and disturbances of the digestive system. They can become over-critical and sometimes this makes them highly-strung and rather unbearable to those around them.
On the other hand, sometimes if the Moon in Virgo belongs to a passive person, he or she might end up doing nothing at all. They know very well how many things ought to be done, but because they know they will be unable to do everything, they just stay idle.Since they have a good memory and are resourceful, Virgo Moon people often succeed in areas where it’s necessary to keep a lot of details in mind, and they can prioritise, systematise and put things in order. They are curious to know how the human body works and how to make it more efficient, and as a result they may find themselves studying medicine, nutrition or some kind of healing. In fact, knowledge of what to eat and when to eat can be really important for Virgo Moons because in their physiology, the state of their health is very closely related to their digestion. Perhaps this is the very reason why Moon in Virgo people are so selective with food. Never will they eat just anything! Ever!To stop being stressed out, these people find it helpful to do housework: cleaning, washing up, tidying. Domestic chores can serve as a kind of shelter from the problems of life. Another much less desirable way to deal with their nervousness is to pass it on to others! They do this unintentionally, because it can be so difficult, given their attention to details, not to find something wrong with someone and then latch on to it and nag.
Parents with the Moon in Virgo want to teach their children how to work, how to do everything themselves, and how to keep things in order. Perhaps this is because their own mother taught them how to do all these things, in the same way.

Virgo Basic Profile:Analytical, rational, fair, methodical, talented, planner, hardworking, discriminating, tasteful, motivated, reserved, intelligent, creative, orderly, structured, but can be critical, rigid, sarcastic, snobbish, narrow-minded

COMPARED TAURUS SUN AND VIRGO MOON

• Symbol--------------------The Bull-------------------The Virgin
• Element-------------------Earth----------------------Earth
• Group---------------------Emotional----------------Intellectual
• Polarity-------------------Negative------------------Negative
• Fav. Colors---------------Green/Brown------------Navy/Neutrals
• Key Body-----------------Part Neck/Throat-------Nervous System
• Ruling Planet------------Venus----------------------Mercury
• Cross/Quality-----------Fixed-----------------------Mutable
• House Ruled-------------Second---------------------Sixth
• Opposite------------------Scorpio--------------------Pisces
• Lucky Gem---------------Emerald-------------------Peridot

EGYPTIAN
Anubis' are clever, full of compassion, a bit of a fatalist, slightly ambivalent or inhibited but deep...Female color Crimson, male color sienna


AZTEC
Name - Cipactli
English name - Alligator
Tonal name - 1
Description
Alligator is a good and creative nature. She tends to be very helpful individual, and carries much concern worries of the others. Sex plays important part in alligator's life but is not necessary item although sex has deep significance for her. Alligators are mostly very faithful partners.



NATIVE AMERICAN
Beaver - methodical, perseverance, inventive, headstrong

CELTIC
Willow
Physical Goal: To encourage a comfortable relationship with the material world, which is full of lessons and cycles of changing values. Change is paramount for growth...and values are no exception.
Mental Goal: To gain understanding of a particular concept...a steady accumulation of facts is the foundation of understanding. Not everything may be learned in one lesson...the key is repetition.
Spiritual Goal: To learn that there must be periods of rest rather than continual activity.

DRUID HOROSCOPE
Name - Jasmine
Dates - 1.5-14.5,3.11-11.11
Type - Feminine
Element - Fire
Description
Jasmine is swift in her talks, thoughts and moves. She's sensitive, emotional and pessimistic. Jasmine does considerateness, diplomatic and farsighted actions. Jasmine looks for independency and does not want to be tied up to anything.

FINNISH HOROSCOPE
Main sign - Wild boar (lynx)
Heart sign - Lynx
Dates - 17.4-8.5
Description
This boar is very efficient combination, charismatic and lives on the edge of present. Her humour is demanding, even strange, because she resents obvious things. There are some, who start to dislike this boar because of her originality.
There are two kinds of people among these board: Positive basic wild boards, and extreme divas. She feels same time as a calculative as dreamiest. She thinks impossible dreams being needless waste of time, and plays only with safe cards.
She lets her inspiration to affect everything and after she's finished her project, she's open for praising.

BLOOD
Type A – The Farmer
calm
patient
sensitive
responsible
overcautious
stubborn
unable to relax

AUSTRALIAN
Hairy-nosed Wombat - Fertility = End of Cycle


http://www.angelfire.com/wi/innerwisdom/auzastrology.html
MAYAN - http://www.mayanmajix.com/TZOLKIN/index.php
WESTERN - http://www.psychicguild.com/horoscopes_zodiac.php?sign=Taurus
MOON - http://lunarium.co.uk/sign.php
EGYPTIAN - http://hubpages.com/hub/Egyptian-Astrology
NATIVE AMERICAN - http://www.brownielocks.com/NativeAmericanHoroscope.html
CELTIC - http://www.novareinna.com/constellation/willow.html
AZTEC - http://www.thebookofshadows.net/aztec-horoscope/cipactli.html
DRUID - http://www.thebookofshadows.net/druidhoroscope/jasmine.html

Will Vinton's Claymation Christmas Celebration

Will Vinton's Claymation Christmas Celebration

I used to love this video and was so sorry when I accidentally taped over it. Yay for Google though, I typed it in and Boom took me to Fanpop and the next thing I know I found it!! YAY! Hope ya'll enjoy...I know it's early for Christmas.

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Alas all things must end.

I am very sad that this is my last blog about my trip but all good things must come to an end. Sorry it was so late at the end of my trip I didn't have a lot of time to write.

17th - Monday
Today was filled with shopping and walking around the city it was very nice always wonderful to be with David. I bought some gifts at a few stores and dragged him in a few clothing stores, he was such a sport. When his mother came home we chatted for a bit and went for a drive, she took us to the beaches that David and Evelina went to when they were young Gullvik and Nyänget. Some guys in a shack on the beach were wanting to buy my camera...I didn't know what they were saying so Christina answered for me.

18th - Tuesday
Today we met up with David's father and walked to Cafe Uhe for sandwhices and chatting it was nice to see him, we walked down to the harbor right as it started to sprinkle and we met another family member and talked for awhile he was nice and we walked back to the apartment so we could get his gift and said goodbye, I realized my stay was coming to a close, and that made me sad.

19th Wednesday
Today was special (every day was) we went back to morfar (David's mothers' father) for a visit. The majority of the conversation was in Swedish of course and David's grandfather was so wonderful he tried to speak to me and they made me feel so welcome. David has such a wonderful family everyone has been absolutely amazing.

20th Thursday
movie day, yay movie day

21st Friday
Today was my last day at the apartment we hung out with Maria she came into town and we went down to the harbor where we saw his father again so we sat and talked some more and walked around a little more waiting for Anton (Maria's boyfriend) to get there then her father to pick them up. After they left we walked back home and chilled for a bit, David had something up his sleeve and I knew it but he kept a great poker face.
Turns out Christina planned a wonderful meal it was three courses, avacado with shrimps, yummy meat with potatis, and corn and a mushroom sauce then a homemade chocolate mousse it was absolutely amazing. They gave me hard bread, porridge, and chocolate, pure yummy chocolate, with the sweetest letter. It was so amazing and I was completely surprised (David did good keeping the secret).

22nd Saturday
Boy was today a long one, we got up about 8ish had to be on the bus at 10:10 to Ostershund where we met with David's friend, Björn, Larsan, and Peter and we had to buy wood...it was an adventure the guys are really David has very good friends. So we get back to Peter's apartment (I felt bad because my bag was heavy...stupid books weigh a lot)...and David started asking for, what I thought, was a girl....Kistine. I was thinking...who is Kistine...and why dont I know about her...dun dun duh... turns out Kistine is an allergy pill...that's ok haha. So we played some games (it was awhile before the dinner) and I had coffee to keep me awake...yay kafe. Then two girls walked in, one with her hair all done (the bride Lindha, Peter is the groom) and another girl (Linda). They introduced themselves and the bride was getting things together and Linda sat down next to me on the sofa we started talking. Yay new friend, we have a lot in common and I showed her my DS Lite (we were talking about games) and just chilling having fun.
At the dinner I met Hanna (Linda's sister) and her boyfriend Mattias and three other guys that are apart of their group we had dinner and listened to very nice speeches made and more talking with the group. Linda's boyfriend knew about Waco Texas...Dr. Pepper Museum and wants to go there. After dinner we hopped in a taxi and went to the airport (Larsan calls it a field...he's right) where the sun was starting to set. About 10 the bride and groom made there was to a ring of tiki torches and were hitched, Yay Peter and Lindha! We were then ushered inside to warm up and have fika, yay fika. We went back outside for a fire performer (very entertaining) then back inside for cake and socializing. It was a lot of fun Linda, Hanna and I talked up a storm and I didn't feel at all out-of-the-loop or alienated. All of them are so nice and welcoming and it made me want to live there. A little later (after more caffine to keep me awake) we went outside and sat by a pit fire, David made me a hamburger and we talked with everyone and joked around. Around 3 a.m. we were eating candy (again to keep us awake) and decided the after party was done, Peter and Lindha offered for us to come back and wait at their apartment before we had to catch the train.

23rd Sunday
At about 6 a.m. we were out on the street waiting for the bus to show up to take us close to the train station (still haven't slept). I was getting a little cranky...but trying to maintain my good mood. The busdriver dropped us off close to the station but we had a hard time finding it...so I thought. David is of course calm and cool and trying to keep me calm...we had plenty of time I think part of it was I was so tired. So we found the station and at 8 we hopped on the train to Arlanda (the Airport at Stockholm). I finally fell asleep on the train and slept pretty good. At the airport I bought a bag (I needed something to take away some weight from my check bag) and we found the shuttle to the hotel. Checked in just fine went up to the room to find a cute little room with two twin beds and very contemporary design. We passed out and slept...yay sleep. I woke him a little later because I was so hungry we hadn't eaten since 2:30 that morning and it was about 7 in the evening. So we walked down to the little mall and everything was closed except a McDonalds...we ate. We needed food and it was pretty good. Went back up and slept, we were so tired.

24th Monday
We got up early to have a really good breakfast provided by the hotel and the went back up and fell back asleep (7:30 is too early to be up haha) when we woke back up we had been given some tickets for transportation by his mom should we choose to go to Stockholm. Since it was so late in the day and we were ending our stay I really just wanted to lounge around and not deal with traffic and people. So we walked around the little mall attached to the hotel and had lunch at a cafe and just enjoyed a relaxing day. That night we had a nice dinner at the hotel restraunt it was just a nice peaceful day to spend with him. What we needed.

25th Tuesday
Today is a hard day...we woke up and had breakfast got ready and went to the airport...my least favorite place today. We walked around I got checked in where I was asked numerous questions about bag packing and if tweezers qualified as a weapon. We sat I cried of course I of course don't want to be without him. Finally I had to go through the checkpoint to get to my plane, walked back had another passport check and again had to answer questions about bag packing and presents. The flight wasn't full at all and I sat next to a really nice Serbian woman who ended up being my traveling buddy. It's nice to have someone to stand next to you in long lines and I needed the company. Philly was fine customs was fine and the plane back to Dallas seemed to take forever. I was so happy to see my parents it was weird because it didn't feel like I was gone for that long. I guess I have two places I love to be, Sweden and America.